gosh, i've been so busy since the last post that i couldn't actually find some proper time to sit in front of the computer and write a proper entry. well, finally it's here. another entry from another soul.

workload is piling up now. i've got feeds to formulate and mix, ingredients to test, tanks to clean and set, fishes to weigh and graded, essays etc etc. and to top things, i'm leaving to pulau aur tonite to complete my open-water dive session. hopefully, my assessment would be eazy breezy cos i'm really really tired. on the other hand, maybe this break is a blessing before i'm 'grounded' in penang up until next year.

different people have different ways to cope with greif. some cry them out. loud and pitiful. some swallow them in and channel it to some other emotions. as for me, i go shopping and eating. yup. shopping and eating. last tuesday, i'd actually spend about 200 bucks on clothes. 5 pieces of tops, 1 bottom and a little more accessories. crazy huh...then went to feed. went crazy downing everything..pancakes, dinner, ice cream etc. somehow, i felt better and lighter....

i have a thing against my cousins..however, i will always welcome them if they are rich and loaded. my italian cousin came visiting last week, and boy, it was great having them here. firstly, they came with expensive gifts (read: pure leather belt with nice buckle). then we have lovely lovely dinner that i wouldn't even contemplate of having them by myself. we went to chillis (that place rocks) and also to ryoma (jap food at its finest)...if only i have more wealthy cousins that will come a visiting..haha

well, have to leave now to pack up for my trip.

adios and wish me luck

it's the third week of the semester. i started my project this morning, running around the lab and working like a mad cow. the magnitude of the project finally settled in. a few days ago, a friend called me up and comforted me, telling me how simple and straightforward my project is... now, i'm starting to develop headaches over it. everytime i think of it, my head spins and vertigo sets in...(am wondering now if it was from the accident recently??). gosh. now, i can't even find proper reference to keep me going

it's amazing how irritating an ant bite and be. i was stung by a fire ant (kerengga) on sunday, and boy...it was really bad. my finger swelled like into a sausage-like entity, and i had to go to the doctors the following day. apparently, i'd develop a mild reaction against the toxin and hence the swelling. actually, the swelling became rather bad, and i had a 'mee koo' (dough turtle) for my left hand. the doctor was actually worried that i may suffer from anaphylactic shock. thank goodness it didn't.....

harry potter and the deathly hallows..good book to read. surrounded by all the hype and excitement, it did prove its worth. it was better than the previous books, and somehow, the story is rather mature. in fact, there is a high number of body counts, making it rather unsuitable for children under 15. little children should stay with 'princess stories' instead of the boy wizard. however, i didn't really like the epilogue of the book. come on, it's the finale of the decade. i'm sure j.k.rowling could have done better.

the 'daydream' cafe from starbucks is coming to an end. the azuki frappucino is going to bow out from the season soon.. i'm gonna miss ya, and all the lovely daydreams u gave me. u can't imagine the delight of me and my azies.. it's pleasure (minus the guilt).

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panic attack

who would have guessed..me having a panic attack. i've been in the uni for 3 years now and this is the first time that i had a panic attack. i was sweating, panting, giddy, and felt like my chest was collapsing and i couldn't breath. my gosh, it was horrible. very horrible.....

cause of panic: my final year project. i spoke to my supervisor today, and she'd assign me the title for the third year project. it is to investigate the effects of dietary oil source on muscle lipid storage pattern in catfish. it's a rather difficult topic, and i have loads to do. i have to find out the composition of feed, feed the fishes, and finally conduct a battery of test on them. and mind u, it's not 10 or 20 fishes...it's approximately 750 catfish fingerlings..750 of them. in 21 large fibreglass tanks. and i've got to feed them for 12 to 16 weeks. argh...there goes all my freedom. my gym time, my dance time, my yoga time. there goes my life...for the next year. and the worse part is that i'm not even a fish nutritionist. i am a zoologist. one day, i hope to be a behaviourist or taxonomist. i want to swim with cetaceans. i want to watch monkeys dancing and the such...not investigating the muscles of fish. gosh......:(

got my starbucks tumbler...finally. it is so cool. so elegant. it's black with silver writings..can't wait to use it tomorrow....haha. oh, and my tongue is still recovering from the burn caused by the starbucks hot choc i had yesterday. it was raining and the hot chocolate did me good.

ok, enough for today. still reeling from the panic attack

oh, can't wait for the third season of the ghost whisperer. i just love melinda gordon (jennifer love hewitt).

the new semester started on the 9th. so, basically, it's the fourth day into the new semester, into the new year. i'm gonna have a busy semester ahead of me. i'm gonna be stuck in a project (fishes for the moment, but i'll try to appeal to change to monkeys), completing my minor papers (clinical psycho and counselling) and hoping to stay sane throughout the whole year.

went for my counselling class today. overall, it was quite a promising class. the lectures are gonna be about the techniques and theories on counselling. then the assignments and such. somehow, there was a weird feeling when i was in the class. i felt kinda stressed out. seems like my energy was completely zapped out from my body. and the worse is that i was alone in the class. alone amongst 200++ students. very weird experience. honestly, i don't think i felt that lost, even when i started some 2 years ago...haih

for the past 21 years, i had believe that i was born with two left feet. i couldn't dance, or even strike a pose. i would be clumsy and trip on my foot. and for my first clubbing moment, my dad actually said that i looked like a monkey dancing. i used to scoff at my friends for dancing (during the dance dance revolution era). somehow, things have changed. i'm now a crazy dancer. or at least that's what i think. i'd dance and dance...and was even selected to dance for a demo. me, dancing in public.....haha. and i did. i did my demo yesterday. in front of a crowd of few hundreds. i danced...flawless.. such amazing feeling. i was exhilarated...gosh. looks like i've found a new passion, and  i'm loving it.....oh, another thing...i'm paid for the demo. haha

the spice girls are making a comeback.....whee....i couldn't wait. in fact, i think i might even give up everything and fly to one of their concerts. hey, don't judge me, but i grew up in the era where platform shoes and catchy monikers were cool. i grew up in the era whereby girl power was all the rave...so, i heart the spice girls. honestly, i think i would make victoria beckham my role model. i'd actually love the new hairdo of hers. gosh...i miss the spice girls.

another memento of my era...transformers. gosh, i caught the movie about 2 weeks ago. it was FABULOUS. my gosh.. simply amazing. although i didn't really grow up with them (i do know them), i still love the movie. i love the robots..admittedly, i'm a huge fan of optimus prime (it was my only fav). so, imagine seeing optimus prime on the big screen. made me feel like i'm a 7 year old once again.

now, i can't wait to watch harry potter and the order of pheonix. i think it would be really good. and the last book would be out soon too...ahh. can't wait. it's the grand finale. the ending of the harry potter saga. the saga that captivated the heart and soul of kids and adults worldwide...wow

oh, random thought...jennifer love hewitt is so so hot. i'm still on the ghost whisperer (season 2) and she is so so hot. can't wait to finish the series. anyway, i can feel so much for her character, and at certain occasions, i did feel sad and wanted to cry (of course i didn't)

new addiction from starbucks...chamomile tea. it is simply delicious. i'm gonna get the flask soon. and maybe, i'll just pamper myself with a box of the chamomile tea..haha. but still, i love the azuki frappucino (both coffee and affrogato style). i'm such a sucker at this....

ok, ciao....and long live summer babies...hahaha

random thoughts

well, my holidays are coming to an end..after 2 and a half months of holiday, it's coming to an end. i am missing it already. i've signed up for my courses (1 core course and 2 minors) and of course, for the major project. i will either be stuck on the ground looking for snails (either micro or land snails in penang and langkawi), or i might be stuck in the botanical gardens observing monkeys for the rest of the year. isn't it amazing...haha

starbucks is so....cool. now, it's my fav cafe in town. starbucks...the lovely azuki frap, the lovely tea, the lovely hot chocolate...and the lovely coffee. ah..starbucks is now my heaven...ah. what's most amazing...i love my coffee in the gym too. it freaked out all the gym freaks cuz i was loading tonnes of calories after a nice bout of workout..haha

it's the seventh of july (ok, was). 070707..so, happy 070707. nothing significant for me there. another boring day with dinner of 9 sausages, some indian food and a night out in batu feringghi. as for the live earth concert, didn't watch any. but that doesn't stop me from becoming a 'greener' person. let's all take heed and save the environment before it is too late.....

oh, my hair is short again. but not as short as the previous cut. this time, i went for a proper trim (about 6 inches off), and it is super wavy now. oh, and i could sport straight hair too...and i mean those 'rebonding' straight type. my hair stylist did the temporary one for me the other day...and it manage to bring out the other person in me. the dormant charmer..haha. matter of fact, i think the dormant charmer is finally away and ready to take on whatever that comes my way...i want my 'person'...fast

ok, enough for now. will rant some other time

ciao